for real today is 01/01/11

dont ask hw i was celebrating my New year eve..coz i ws sumwhere on level 6 heaven HDOK..well no tension.not even a single feeling of pressure..( liar) ..there were moment when i feel pressure esp covering few cases tht required hight concern..and etc..but yes i was free pressure during my night call..alhamdullilah.i gain my confident level..syukur..moga2 bertambah2 lah pas ne :)
if u ask me abt my ny year wish and target or apa2 lah..i can say i dont have one yet..coz i dunt even hv time to thk of it..i just hope i can be better and become sumone more responsible for myself and my family.think less abt nonsense things..live this life to the fullest..( mcm ndak ngam jak bunyinya ne.)
what i want now is..just my car..to cheer me up..hw i miss it!!! :(

happy new eveyone..and sorry for those who sms me but i wasnt reply yet..but i do appreciate those wishes.. :) love

xoxo

post call feeling

semlm on call..on call on sunday memang lah tidak di sukai ramai,coz dari half day lagi kwn2 lain sudah balik dan merancang mcm2 benda yg best while saya stuck d ward dan tunggu pelanggan..opsss ini bukan sesuatu yg d tungu2.hahhaha..emm admission pas jam 2pm agak memberangsangkan..sehingga saya berdoa tolonglah mlm ne ok2 jer..siang hari d terima akal..if mlm2 tu dah hmpir2 jadi zombie tu tolong lah bagi saya zzzz..makanya jam 5pm plus saya kuar p membeli shu shi to cool down my aura..hahhahaa..ckp sajalah geng on call saya geng shu shi. :P conclusion on call wasnt tht bad..but myb my 2nd on call partner agak stress bgn awal pg ada admission..tidur sedikit terganggu dengan phone call yg reporting entah apa2..eeeer..sehingga rasanya semua itu hanya mimpi..luckily i didnt made any mistake while assuming all the report and etc just as my dream...bgn pagi2 terus call NICU reconfrm abt the last nite call..gosh nasib baik lah baby tak grunting and ok2 saja.. :)
well actually ini bukan lah point nyer..post call nyer lah kan..
1st day di dcc..and yes ok aja...cuma super2 post call..after 5pm..fikiran mula jd sot2..ala2 mau jadi bodoh sudah.i cant concentrate doing my thgs tht im supposed to do..i cant consult myself that im fine..i cant force to tell myself that im OK..started to feel like Shortness of breath every time thinking of all deeply things that i kept.at this moment i just wish what happened today just another episode of dream @ another level of dream..aisehhh

merry x-mas and happy birthday mom

no holiday on big day just a normal thing.almost forgetting any festive also seems normal things since working.working 7days a week just made me just thing of weekdays and weekend..tht it.on top of it tomorw my on call day..so so so kerja sorang2 ler aprox dari jam 11am..and of coz continue working the next day up to 5pm.so who on earth complaning tired of working for 5days just so so so unbelievable..in 4 months only entitle for 8days oliday another amazing things to be as an Ho. :) eeeee...be happy!!

well nothing much happening today But i just miss to celebrate my mom birthday today ..managed to call her today..semoga panjang umur dan sehat selalu :) i really miss her..well mom will get a present for her for sure :)

planing to get more sleep today as preparation for on call tomorrow :)

cheers

cheering up

what is wrong with ths world when people begin to wonder why am i single to mingle?no one can believe.eeeeerr..coz Dr are too bz to fine one.i hates Drs.so put them aside.they wont be able catch my eyes..auchhhh cakap besar yer aku?? :)
well to be honest im giving space and time for my self. i cant decide anything yet for now, to be fair to my self and be selfish or even it might hurt others are my rules now.i need time.i need to prove to my self that i can reach my target of life.i want to do sumthg extra ordinary even if it might cost me a failure to thrive..:P sekali lagi berasa sgt bongkak.well pray hard and do hard.insyallh Tuhan itu maha adil. we wont get everything in this life.so nw i choose sumthg tht benefit myself. cheers..

life is easy

sekadar renungan

im not stress, just kinda hypoxic ~~~ sleepy head again!! gosh..pls2 be rajin..bunch of thgs to read..enjoy reading and study as much i enjoy snorkeling..yay~~
there so much things tht put aside rite now.priority in my life now kinda change.some times im become so confuse when its related to my personal matter, t never happened before.But now it worsening and severe.there is a moment where i want to run and not be myself.i just wanna be free.its not so cruel to decide to be alone.its not tht bad if i say that i love my self more than others.its not harm to say i keep sumthing deep inside my heart.it not so selfish if i choose to take much time just for myself. it fair enough to stay on a safe side.

my happiness depends on me after God

im getting older n darker :(

today i realize how ugly am i now..shitty my skin getting darker nw but i keep on telling my self its okey at least i had enjoyed my trip.but nw its all matter of time for my skin to be bck to normal.but hw if it remain darker?gooshh!! Im having eye bag nw..aaaaaaaaaargggg!!!so tension.why on earth it could be??who and what to blame on?if last time during my med school it wasnt tht bad.even during xm season.hw can i get my beauty sleep again?if most of the night i fall a sleep rite after lying down on the bed.im not on call. everyday so how it could be the causes for my eye bag?eeerr tension okey on top of it i just begin on call recently n..huhuh..sad2 :((

is it coz i am getting older??pls vasih it away..no...no..i want thgs to be just fine :P

saturday post call

either i can call it as adaptation or it jst my body having some problems? as today is my post call usually if 2 hours sleep i'll start to get headache on the next day..but actually it wasnt tht bad i had 3 hours sleep last nite :) with wonderful stuff nurse and great mo it just really helping my on call even my post oliday call begin with bolus dosage with new specialist in the house..wooot..wooot..it hard to adjust my body and mind accordingly after holiday.it was begin with sleepy head,yawning and hypoglycemic during morning round..on top of it there is TDS round mean night round in the ward..goshh mau tak mau..kena tau semua kes..ambik ko~~
well i went tru all smoothly..alhamdullilah.
today kinda bz..expected to be able to finish my work before noon..but thgs just not on my side.sabar jer lah..as long as im not sleepy it fair enough :) plus..rajin nyer lagi nak p movie repunzel at 3.15pm..wah semangat..well i like sumthg enjoyable..so i did enjoy banana ice cream,pop corn and the movie..yay!! im enjoying  every moment of my life..i pray hard  to pass my first posting at paeds.amin

mabul and kapalai island did blast my birthday :)

opss..more pic will be uploaded soon :)

just intro2 cukup lah tu kan ..

wat i can say is kapali island is superb and awesome  place to escape from everything.i feel like in haven.enjoy every single minutes.even tak dpt p sipadan island.but kapalai still world class place for divers as well..snokerlin pun sudah rasa mcm jakun@ terpegun..heheh ini lah lahi divers.ikan nemo..ikan biru2 and etc.semua best..mau pigi lagi :)

emmm since im so tired now..will upload more abt ths trip ya..

thanx to my family for ths lovely trip

enjoy

i just got booster today..yes yes i get holiday at last.sunday till 16th..since my family will be around..i hope we could go mabul/semporna..yay!!pls2 take me away from my work .

tomorrow i'l oncall..but no pressure at all...wat ever its takes i will be just fine.since its gonna be friday..half day mah saturday..thn thn can enjoy my oliday~great .. :)

i dunt much wish currently other thn i wish my dad will agree to send my car here..or i could get the new car.. :) or paling chikai pun i want an i phone 4 :))

i just love my day today..so relaxing..even able to get small nap.yay.:)and now waiting for my parents, my bro and my cousion wan to arrived sandakan ..

:)

tired

lots of things im tired of now.i tot i over it.i tot im strong.i tot i can accept evertthing.yet why the hell there is sumthg triggering me and swing my mood away??why am i wake up in the middle of the night and write here?pls i need a sleep.i need my ugly sleep.i tried my very best to cheer myself.i tried hiding everything.i tried my best to be matured in handling thgs..but why its seems nothing is enough..could ths life treating me better..at least away from ths unpleasant  feeling.as i alwz think of lateily at least let me dreaming and sleep nicely as a coma patient in  icu..keep me feel tht way..i just too tired

life

we never knw whar will happen next..there for now i let everything go with the flow. if before i was kinda depressed to accept the fact in working in Sandakan and on top of it begin with paeds department handling kinds and baby.after a month i begin to accept thgs the way it is.if people were talking abt hw bad tht paeds could treating me.but i could say i am happy here. i like the working environment even myb there is few thgs slack there and there.but no one perfect and yet i could say it worth if get scolded if u made mistake.all my MO are super cool..can seat,talk,hang out and chilling togther2.:)
i put my sadness aside. i treat my self and my life as fair as i could.i take all ths as a challenge for me.be single not tht bad, just a matter of most of thing i have to decide by my self.but it does not mean we hv to hate or fight ech other. we handling things smoothly as i du.nt knw who and what to blame on. trap in between regarding life matter really feel and sound sucks but i let it go.as im not getting younger year by year..let my self be free again.explore my working life,enjoy it and spend my time as much i want either at hospital or where ever i want. im not ready for commitment and there for thgs are like ths now :)
im happy for thoes who found their happiness and mr right to be with..here i would like to congratz my dear friend maslyn and azry on their big day. semoga berbahagia selalu. i cant forgive myself not to be on her side on her big day..cuti tiada..emmm cis..tht moment lah my on call was.feel so so so sorry :(

cheers

saya doc peads kah?

memang sukar d percayai..first posting lyn d department peads..memang sound real sucks..btw so far satu bulan..its not tht bad lah kan.cuma i pray hard nothg bad gonna be happened lah kan..amin..i dunt mind learning.:) di sini lah belajar itu lipat lampin..eeer belum pas lagi lah ..sini lah juga terpaksa pandai angkat baby even prem baby.oh..cucuk sana sini tangan baby hampir expert sudah. alah bisa tegal biasa..wah betul kah tu?well well well i can deal with few minor and comment things around here..tidak lah expert lagi sgt .but ibu2 d luar sana kebanyakan kes anak2 yg reffer ke ward yg berkaitan dengan cirit birit dan prob akan jd sukar jika anak2 itu sudah d beri ubat tahan berek oleh clinic luar.kerna ubat itu sgt

 tidak bgs utk kanak2.ada yg akan menyebabkan perut kembung..dan sakit yg berpanjangan kerna kuman2 itu stuck d dlm badan dan berlegar2 di situ.so fever juga mungkin akan terjd.or cirit birit akan berlarutan..air garam ada lah yg terbaik.caranya sekurang2 nya 10ml ( satu sudu  makan dan d beri sedikit dlm setiap 2-3 mint). memang leceh..tapi itu ada lah untuk memulihkan garam dlm badan untuk menstabilkan garam2 dan sistem penghadaman dlm badan.jika hingga tahap muntah2 @ not tolerating orally at all usually memang required admission.air dan garam dlm badan perlu d gantikan dengan menggunakan IV drip.

causes for diarrhea could be varies .myb really food poisoning..water born, changing of infant formula and all..susu ibu ada lah yg terbaik..:)  well entry kali ne saja2 lah unutk mempoyo kan diri  :)

tc everyone

am i still dreaming?

ths morning..damn lazy to wake up..feel like im gonna fall sick...sick of waking up 5.40am aka 6am for 7days a week..work till up to 10pm,ever up to 12am.argghh sick of it.by body just cant bare on it today..gosh...when i look at the window..wow its ranning outside no wonder i feel super damn lazy ya.reach hosp around 715am.lucky me not much to update.and at nursery the morning round not as early as t chidlren ward.btw till today i cant imagine actually im working now and wake up early every single day.wt a life.
sumtimes minor distruction either internally or externally could change my mood.but so far im able to adjust and b cool most of the time.
most of the night i just sleep and colapse..hahaha tidur mati.but sumtimes sumthg stress me up before sleep and just buried all the sorrow deeply inside my heart and sleep wt it.next morning just wake up and lock uneasy feelin inside.
life change so much...i'll do wat ever it takes to ensure i'll strive in ths life.either people might saying tht im become heartless,feelingless or wat ever lah..I dunt care cz im the one who deal wt ths life.

takbir raya d hospital

selamt hari raya aidil adha semua..best kah?ada berkorban apa2? i did korban jiwa dan raga today..kerja 7 hari seminggu membuatkan diri lupa hari dan lupa cuti2 umum..jd perasaan hari ne tidak lah meronta2 bnyk mana pun p kerja..cuma yes wear casual..cool..pagi2 ndak rasa apa2..bgn mandi dan rushing p hospital yg mana 3 mint jak pun smpi..well bila sampai tempat parking tu heran ehh bnyk juga yg berbaju melayu ne..errr alamak terdengar takbir raya yg  sgt merdu..uisshh dari masjid d hosp ne lah..adeh2..sebak  pulak jd nya..di buatkan cerita pulak..rupanya2 masjid tu sebelah my ward jak pun..lagi lah celar deh..dengar kutbah sambil2 clarkin patient dah updatate case notes..walaweh..hari ne kerja ok lah..ndak lah seteruk mana pun.dengan nasib yg menyebelahi diri yes dpt balik hald day..kalau ada mana2 mo lain yg puashat ate esok mati lah lyn..well rasanya no hal lah..pray hard :)
mkn tengah hari d town bersama chombi..beraya rendang ayam kedai lah kami,, :)
balik rumah zzzz..wah  tidru petg nikmat nya..gila boleh jd coma oh..
beberapa hari ne kerja memang mcm shitz..b a gurl@ women memang susah..lagi2 kerja d environment yg penuh gan gurls..damn ..jelously maigh arise anytime..gila2..jd dr memang boleh jd gila hanya kerja org2 d bawah itu mengila atrau meroyan ndak tentu pasal..dengan nasib sebagai ho ne kena sbr jak lah ..kasi menang jak dorang semua tu..tebalkan hati..hati sudah hampir beku.sesunggunya tuhan itu lagi adil..org2 yg terainaya doa nya mungkin akan jd antara yg tip top d atas list ..hehehhe
well i treasure my day and hope i could be a good dr sumday,,evenho kadang2 rasa give up..rasa bosan hanya kerja non stop 7days in a row..aissshhh..
jgn lah bercita2 menjd dr..atau pun mau anak kamu jd dr..kerja lain lah..:)

luahan hati ho baru.

cheers

weekend

yay kerja patutnya 7 till 10pm..sabtu hari bermula dengan sesuatu yg tidak lah indah tidak lah teruk..cuma damn sikit..but it covered up whn i m able to escape from hell a bit..berjaya melarikan diri jam 2.30pm.wow satu pencapaian terhebat,,mengambil kesempatan ke atm machine, ke giant,apply astro dan juga berjaya melepak2 d secrete reciepe..well nasib baik lah ndak terjumpa dengan mo lain//hahahhaha
so far life up and down..and bla2..bla2..nothg last forever..so fuck it!!ahahhahah
enjoy ur day..

hope i'll be able to update anytg again soon

wat a life

kalau boleh kasi masuk ne kan bunyi2 background ne confrm mau kasi masuk..engan buyi2 bayi menangis..uweek2..aiseh alwz make me wonder bah where am i now???gosh im at hospital and im working..shitz..working life for ths first 1 month with workin hour 7am till up to 10.00pm really wonderful!!gooooossssh!!!wth..yes memang betul jadi dr jadi bodoh..jgn lah kasi anak2 kamu jd dr..seriously medical school and in practice kinda 2 diff things..babs...wasting my 6years of life!bukan lah terus2 semua ndak ada kaitan..but lagi bnyk yg pelik2.. :)). first 1week an a half life just ok ok..nw slightly depressed to be at nicu ward..shitzz i hates those cases..hates those pre mature baby and etc2..arrghhhh..well well mau jd dr pakar juga mengambil masa yg lama..kena jadi kuli dulu oh!!damn it~~

well im still alife crying so far once jak ..not yet under depression..baby2 kalian sila lah besarkan urat2 darah kamu ya supaya ndak lama lag mau menyucuk2 oky~make my life easy baby..

entry sebelum berkhidmat

tuan2 dah puan..saya akan bermula berkhidmat d sandkan di Duches of Kent hospital. Hidup terasa gelap.dunia pun samar2 bila dpt surat tawaran!!menangis pun sudah..tekanan pun sudah..sejak balik dari PD jumaat semlm..memang semua jd mcm semcm.uhuk2..skrg sudah pun di kk..isnin lapor dii d JKN,thn selasa d sandakan..tidak berminat utk mengulas lgi lanjut.
dah kemungkinan tidak akan dpt update blog ne sekerap2 nya ya..hidup akan berubah!! :(

doakan semuanya

demi berkhidmat

packing

prgghhhh!!ndak pernah2 selama ne susah gila mau fikir bju apa dan apa yg mahu d packing!tapi kali ne utk p induksi d PD my head just burst out!t shirt pun mau yg berkoler kah ?ade2..formal2 ne memang killing me juga..aisshhhh i need do more shopping lah ne..ok hope got budget n time lah for all ths.tp d mana ya? suggestion utk shopping d kl for formal2 nyer baju lah!But  i saw few pics frm my frnd yg currently berinduksi d Pd juga..wah mereka tidak guna baju berkoler2 itu pun..ok set esok akan tukar few baju berkoler kepada yg lebih relaxing!!hehehehe.
entry yg sgt bosan kan?kerna saya berada dlm mood bosan!

enjoy ur day everyone

menghitung hari

hari ini bgn awal  jam 10am..yes awal lah kan..opss seblm tu bgn jam 7am sudah atas perintah menolong ajar my bro buat homework math!!arggghh otak beku pagi2..semlm ndak mau buat!!cis~~panasaran aku jadi nya OK!nasib sekolah mula jam 8am..if sekolah biasa mcm mana lah ko ne dik oi!thn smbung zzzz balik!emmmm ndak lama lagi sudah mau mula induksi dan kerja..bgn awal  bermula..otak kena berfungi seawal 6.30am..bagai mana kah!!shittttt..takut nya.
td tengh hari p lunch wt my mom..ala2 pas ne susah sudah mau cm ne.uhuk2...sob~`kurang lah sudah lah aktiviti berpeleseran mcm org yg memang tiada kerja..aisssehh..susah suda mau pakai seluar pendek jln2 tengh hari ne..aisehh...gonna miss my long2 break holiday!!

Love letter

today is my lazy day until i got phone call from my buddy Maslyn to go for yam cha!yes i like!!i feel excited chit chating abt pre wedding preparation opss not mine for sure her wedding lah.i just found out that its not cheep ya to oder photographer for the wedding even Labuan standard alrdy average frm 600rm to 1600rm..aiseh..if  I am good enough sure i will hlp my friend one!but im damn immature!even my dad having so many lens plus D90 body.aiseh!
well wondering abt my Love letter?its not an invitation card from maslyn, BUT it is such an invitation from Jbtn latihan for my induction as HO.shitz....im nt ready i was expecting it to be sumwhr early nov..WHY? So early bloody hell!i need more time!!time to ..to do wat ever!!aaaaaaaargghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!dislike it!!

Stop Child abuse

Im glad to knw there is such campaign in Malaysia.YES we do really need it to rise self awareness regarding the importance for us ( parents, teacher,youngster and etc ) to understand that even Kids have their right!If there is anyone who wants to take place in this campaign u may refer it at nuffnag advertisement.

wott..woot..

weekend escape!escape to brunei for few days jer pun atas urusan paksa rela..menjd driver kereta sebesar ala2 van memang memenatkan..eventho itu ada lah alphad yg auto gear ya.tapi best lah juga kan..at least dpt jln2 sama family dah jumpa keluarga2 di berunai ( jika notice ini ada lah ejaan kegemaran saya wlpn pun tidak ngam sama sekali mahupun dua kali!!).

walaupun masa terhad tapi sempat juga bershopping2an sedikit..wlpn tiada $$$..kerna saya ada atm bergerak!saya menjadi jatuh minat sama itu tudung2an yg org berunai suka pakai..waduh..very glamour dgn cara mereka tersendiri.i bought 4 of them..sgt tamak!! dan td juga satu lagi tudung anting2 sampai  kedepan rumah saya.ala2..poyo jak lebih mau beli tudung..emmm well at least ada tudung kan..

perjalanan prgi semasa dan balik di berunai adalah OK..dengan sesat sikit itu normal! gmbr2 blm terupload..nnti ya!

balik2 saja td mlm sudah pi dinner..ala2  rindu kah tu org with me..:P

now duduk2 atas katil smbil2 update blog dan pikir2 mls mau unpack!

cheers everyone!

pagi yg delema

bgn2 pagi..opss blm bgn lagi sudah mcm2 happening..pot pet..pot pet from my mom!well used to it,if not gonna miss it for sure!nagging me to do ths and tht lah, well its very rare for me to sumthg before 12noon.let me enjoy my super beauty leading to ugly -ness sleep, before i started work and gonna be in sleeping time trouble.its OK now having over dosage of sleeping hour.bekalan hari tua before kerja,before get married and living wit ur man n myb with mom in low which tht time required me to be an angle as my man alwz said to me!even tho even we dunt knw either we will get to tht level..jodoh,ajal dan maut tiada siapa yg tahu!
opss climax story nyer: i hates to go berunai tomorw!!shit.i dunt mind to go and more thn happy if its not clashing with my gurl wedding.but they using word of " I HAVE TOO"..gosh tak cukup driver lah! wat else worry if sumday family sana ndak akan dtg for my wedding!!well lame.i dunt knw hw to tell amy..but yes i will tel her either after nikah or tonite..sob2.ok nw hv to go,time real pack!mau mandi,iron baju,bibik nada sudah!,mau prepare camera,mau ready2 stuff for tomrw since i knw i wont hv time tonite!!

jam berbunyi..tik tok..tik tok

bunyi jam semakin kuat!!jm rosak kah?or ear drum ne yg rosak!!alamak..bukan lah coz amy mau kawin sudah..kwn baik dari sekolah lagi..semalam pi merayau2 ke rumah bakal pengantin ne..sempat tengok itu pre wed punya adat berbedak..myb melayu berunai and org2 d sekitar sini jak yg ada adat ne.but it sumthing good u knw..memutihkan diri.hhehehe..tiap kali ada saja kwn2 sekolah yg gettin married sure rasa detik2 jam itu semakin kuat.its gonna be my first time attending real closed frnds wedding.all ths while i was away and wasnt able to join the great moments in their life.i feel so much happy for their happiness.its not easy to fine tru love and right guy! pencapai cemerlang ne~~hehehehe..soon nxt month maslyn my other real gurl frnd will gettin married too.wah everyone leaving me behind.life sound so empty now..SCARED!
But still hv few other gurl frdns who having almst the same principle of life aka masih finding a right pathway of life.last few days i ws having a conversation regarding ths matter with him @ bf , how not ready we are since we still finding real feelin and still dlm situasi penyesuaian diri after been away for ths past 3 years.aiseh we seems dunt even can imagine and org bilang seruan masih blm ada!even if according surrounding kami memang di psycho oleh ramai org!one of his good frnd will gettin married soon as well ..gonna hv bachelor party ths weekend.auchh!! well pray for my real happiness ya my friend :)

acara menghiris2

hasil tangan saya

poyo smbil bekerja

amy!!

at last!!

yay!yesterday was most tiring day that involving my room deco thinging.well dont expect too much as i am  immature in decoration stuff. But 90% of all ths work done by myself alone.it was my first time painting and i dunt expect it to be perfect but cukup2 mkn lah kan..

persiapan sblm mula painting

dinding seblm di cat

muka sblm jd buruh kasar

ini sblm lapisan ke 2..memang tidak cantik kan..

ini hasil selps cat lapisan ke 2 dan setelah siap drill pasang rak2 itu

more thgs has to b done but pelan2 sikit..penat

my babies..

mereka sudah hampir 1 bulan 7hb ne.esok pagi baru mau check jantina.before ne berpantang tidak angkat kucing.tdk bgs utk kesihatan mereka.

sgt pandai posing

masih L lagi berjln

mummy " i wanna sing a song!" hahahhahaa

 

"opss my eyes is my key to make u buying me more toys mummy"

semua ini anak checqa..sayang nya satu mati yg serupa mcm checqa.kini checqa mengambil rawatan utk mengemuk kan diri kembali..dah juga botox..hehhe ;) mereka ada lah penghibur hati ku.tp malangnya hearty jd takut dengan babies ini..cian

my lst few days

done!

birthday party : but birthday boy tiada d pic ne.hehee

sedap kek ne,teringat starwberry d russia

bersama team kawi d kk for malaysia open dart competition 

top 4 out of 94 team..proud to be his friend..hehe

menyokong team ini dengan jaya dan bangganya

it was on the 1st till 3rd okt

surat cinta apa kah ini?ini lah surat2 dahulu kala yg berusia lebih 10thn aporx abt 11 years.pen pall..wah how come terputus contact ne.i was so funny bila d fikir2 kan.dulu2 tak ada sms..tp email kan ada..tapi masih juga bersurat2..but the value sgt berharga ..

ini ada lah keadaan bilik yg mcm tongkang pecah selama mengemas d atas kehadiran katil baru itu

ini alamri baru itu..yg sudah berusia 2 minggu lebih kurang

ini lampu dan kati baru itu

opss ada c hearty pulak sana..( gmbar di atas sekali td totally not my room.but myb ths room akan transform lagi.or at least new house in future.

ini pulak kad2 raya yg juga berusia 11thn.dari effalin dan tee yee ween my x class mate.im glad tht we do still keep in touch.form 4 yeen ween pindah p penang dan masih juga rajin hntr kad raya for me.one thing i feel sad coz rupa2nya i never able sending cny card to her..semua i just tulis tp ndak terpos2.bersalah ne!tp we berjaya tercontact balik tru fb..promise my self will get her address and will send her some card.omg i miss my old scholl time.ini lah antara kerja2 sort out thgs bagi org2 yg bercuti panjang ini.

salingan cerita

kini dlm dilema kerna juga ada invitation kawin d berunai.my closed family..and semua org pergi.dah dengan kuasa veto nya i hv to be a driver for one car..ayoo rombongan cik kiah ne..i was tot just to ctach them up on sunday..since majlis ptg dan mlm..so kira2 p weddin amy dulu..will rethink abt it tomorw again..

DiGi iPhone 4 Life

Get a life with DiGi iPhone 4 and live with it that what my mission for. As i mention earlier i'll gonna start my houseman ship aka internship course as a fresh graduated doctor so soon and its gonna be real tough life for me.Some might saying it as beginning of death life and NO life.It does make me under pressure and unmotivated to work in Malaysia BUT i still do believ there is a way to get my life back to track with DiGi iPhone. I could safe my ass ( sorry for my language but its true ) while working, minimizing mistake and get my self updated with medical software provided by iPhone 4. A tone of games application is one of  the anti-stress therapy and yes it good for us to keep our emotion under control and same goes to our health state.DiGi iPhone 4 is leading us towards a better healthy in modern  Life style!

DiGi iPhone 4 Real

DiGi offering the best plain for iPhone 4.There are 3 different plain that offering by DiGi such as iDigi 88, iDiGi 138 and iDiGi 238. I am prefer iDiGi 88, which for me it the most valuable plain.Only RM 58 monthly  up to 24 months contract what a huge saving!! monthly free usage such as 200min voice call, 200 sms, 20mms, 1Gb internet.Lowest rate monthly usage only 15sen/min,10sen for sms, and 20sen for mms.Believe it or not no extra charges after reaching the monthly quato so FREE from unexpected bill statement.FREE calls,sms and mms up to 6 suppliment numbers.Cheaper  call,sms and mms up to 6 numbers for friends and family.All sound so promising and great.Why pay more if there is great bargain in town from DiGI? iDiGi 88 plain is what suite me the most and the best  value for money and iPhone 4. Love DiGI!!

DiG iPhone 4 Play

What gadget that would always stick on your hand?? I am pretty sure that most people would says PHONE@ HAND PHONE!!  Without phone aka hand phone I would feel there is some thing in complete and my head will be in mess. Yet I would tend to browse around either my dad nor friend's iPhone. Poor me just using Window phone.I like Installious application on iPhone. I wont call it as an iPhone without this Installious application. Installious application is one application to download almost everything even my medical e books and medical application could be downloaded easily from there. Life getting easier and  towards perfection with all the application that offer by iPhone..say thank you to iPhone!!

Digi iPhone 4 Play

DiGi IPhone 4Me

What are hot news on earth right now DiGi launching a long awaited I phone 4 in Malaysia.I feel it just a right time for me since i'll start working as  HO (  houseman officer ) aka fresh graduate doctor approximately  around mid Oktober. Wondering why i need an I phone 4? Currently Im am using windows phone and hardly to get medical software and its kinda expensive to prescribe, such a waste for me.I found out more and more medical software for  I Phone 4 are available now , on top of it all I need just click on my finger tip download it directly and all matter solve.It sound great,look great and for sure its awesome!! I phone 4 could make my intensive training as Houseman Officer less stressful since work load and working hours will be just unbelievable hilarious !! I phone 4 you will be my Saviour, my reference and my LOVE ~~ I Phone 4 will not only gonna serve and save  me but as well my future patient. Thank you DiGi for launching and promoting your 1 phone among nuffnag   'reader and blogger.


LOVE DiGi

konsep 1 malaysia

konsep satu malaysia memang satu yg bunyi mcm syok!!mcm mantap..semua org mau mengunakan konsep itu untuk bermcm2 program lah..contoh terbesar konsert satu siti..uweek ndak muntah dengar..satu siti ekk?kaya pun siti satu jak lah..im not a big fan of siti and at the same time tidak jua benci sgt..ok ok..so no offence siti it just a reality of ths konsep 1 malaysia..pengertian belum tentu semua org faham..org atasan pun belum tentu faham sgt..objective and subjective utk konsep ne mostly on paper jer ler lebih..harap2 idea ini tidak di salah ertikan..bukan anti 1 malaysia..pengertian dan pengisian juga semakin kucar kacir.contoh terdekat iklan tv 3 bab raya tht day bertapa lah hilang pedoman..bukan tidak suka pembahuran..it a great idea but certain issue just cant b mixed up in a wrong direction beb..taksub dengan 1 malaysia sampi merosakan minda..tidak kah mereka tahu media massa ada lah pengaruh terhebat kepada minda kanak2..korang ne conffrm tak tengok the arrival ne kan.hw disneyworld catoon dah artis2 d hollywood boleh mempengaruhi minda kita hari ne..
konsep satu malaysia idea yg bgs cuma blm mencapai tahap sebanar..dah org2 yg melaksanakn program2 yg berkaitan kononnya kebannyakannya hanya untuk meraut keuntungan!!haahahahha..well idea ini hanya setakat sembang2 d waktu hujan.ehehhehe..

Rancangan tergendala seketika

3pm dengan cuaca panas keluar pergi terminal ferry membeli ticket kereta utuk ahad ne..malang sudah berpanas dan berpeluh2 ticket ferry jam 130pm hbs lah pulak..ada pagi dan jam 4.30pm jak..sgt lah pasti mesti ada punya lagi jam 1.30pm tu..call up my dad,my bro and even shibu..none of them picking up my call..shitz..after few attempt my dad pick up his phone bt due to his bzness his dunt bother malah d marah pulak ada lah..call up mr shibu gosh hw can he sleep by ths hour ( 3.20pm)..oh curi tulang yer..so so so i just drive bck home and thn only able to reach my bro..sudah otw balik mls mau patah balik beli ticket 4.30pm..alamak itu ferry kecik saja lah...emmm since we will be bck togthr on sunday as plaining..seems to be cancel lah dulu.sudah d rumah dah megupdate blog ne..so biar hantu2 saja lah kemas rumah d sana.i hope there is people who gonna hlp arranging transport my bed back to labuan!
sudah mula berasa bosan duduk d rumah now!!i thk better go kl and sleep whole day and nite there while waiting for induction~~

perancangan seorang penganggur

di seketika menjadi seorang penganggur berjaya ini mcm2 di dlm fikirkan.opss bukan apa yg mahu d buat sebagai penganggur..tapi apa yg plain nnti once sudah menjadi buruh kasar hospital kerajaan..idea@ hasrat untuk menyewa rumah d kk telah d batalkan untuk seketika.ada lah lebih baik mengumpulkan 1krm ech month for few months thn later deposit beli aparment/ rumah..esok lusa boleh d sewakan..so sementara ini tinggal merempat jak lah d rumah my sis nana  or my aunty house d kk..bukan teda rumah d kk.berlambak2..
so next plain sunday ne p kk, kemas rumah sana, memspace kan sebnyk yg mungkin, sediakan apa yg patut insysaalh ada peruntukan..kira2 mau cat rumah d sana juga lah..and selasa depan insyalh dptlah membawa balik katil dari kk ke labuan guna lori..insyallh..

yg selebihnya ndak ada idea mau buat apa.hehehhe..

Singapore

recently i heard a lot about Singapore..most of my friend talking about singapore, and on the last 16th september one of my friend travelling to Singapore just to go to the Disneyland studio..ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh i wanna go there too..perhaps by end of the year ya insyallh..nuffnag as well advertise about Singapore lets check it here :more about Singapore..

sex and the city 2

sudah tengok kah??best oh..hehehehe ..memang life somtimes could be that way..be ready..
sebenarnya ndak ada idea untuk update hari ne..lets share here few picture sepanjang raya :

with my sex and the city gurl

with michelle

with aefa and her lovely daughter

on the 16th sept

was my dad,and my 2 brothers birthday 

conclusion : raya wasnt tht bad.. :)

drama ray

raya tahun ne ndak lah mcm yg d jangkakan..not all my family around..and too much drama since morning 1st day of raya..bad hint doh. not happening like how i left it 6 years ago..mayb matter of age ya..sudah getting older so ndak lah mcm kanak2 dulu ya.

but masih juga happy lah dpt celebrate it with old good frnds back in school..catching up wit them really mean a lot..few of them alrdy gettin married,having children and goin tru motherhood life..sharing a real story of parenting really scary and tough..made me think 99x abt marriage..well in fact blm ada calon sebenar lagi pun..bercinta pun bnyk surut dari yg pasang..ini kan lagi marriage..when one party so ego ..it make thgs gettin harder.bullshit all ths.im admiring my parents and those parents tht stay together after sooo long..

i dunt think i'll be able to  tru all ths..i m prefer my life now even there is sorrow sumwhere but there is a way to heal it.im lookin forward to start workin but at the same time im scared too..

bila dugaan itu terlalu sukar

agree when ppl said " idup umpana roda..kejap d atas,kejap d bawah" mean idup itu ada mcm2 cubaa lah kan..sumtimes we might feel tht our life just almost perfect and just nice..but once it down..rasa mcm  5 mcm .till to the extend unsure either to laugh or to cry on it. sumtimes feel so scared abt life and future..will i be able success?can i b sumone sumday?can i tru all ths life?once i almost can see sumthg for my life there is sumthg else comin up..kadang2 tu terasa dugaan itu tidak akan mengenal erti "enough is enough"..sudah lah dugaan itu semua hampir sama..shitzz org bilang..what is wrong wt all ths? till to the extend feel tired..esp after tryin so hard to normalize ths life.and balancing all elements. i pray to Allah S.W.T to replace all ths sorrow to wealthy tht inssyallh will wait me ahead.so i can sumwhere far far away to continue study or work..amin

hw i wish when i wake up tomorrow it already past abt 3-5 years ..

08/09/2010

wow for the first time since jd pengagngur im writing and updating my blog entry Early morning..( bukan tengah pagi tp 10am ++ gitu)..my kitten woke me up..and on top of it there is bunch of thgs awaiting for me to be done..sigh!

so wat ur plan for today my lovely reader and friends?wat p shopping?ikut ehhh..im sure everyone must be doing  last2 mint raya preparation and etc2.alamak semlm lupa mau update lah..my Checqa sudah selamat melahirkan semlm 07/09/2010 ..if hari ne pun kan lawa tarikh nya..ala2..ada 4 anak ..wah banyak nya..1 first delivery dulu  anak jak..oh worried if checqa will be stress rising up 4 kitties..:) color nyer juga cute.ada warna grey few tompok2 and ada warna brown2 few tompok..tp blm clear lagi lah tengok anak checqa..excited!!im kitties granny now..tua nyer ..well im happy for it :)

alamak baju raya kucing blm beli lah :P

pre raya entry..

gosh i keep on missing ya rite after become official " penganggur " .ada kah hidup sebagai penganggur ini lebih bz  berbanding mejadi medic student?hard to answer..bila bz baru lagi suka membz2 masa ya..
most of my friend getting bored while waiting to start working, emm bt its not happening to me at all..im not looking forwards to start working!! BUT at the same time i need $$$..so for a mean time im spending my time to travel around kk and kl..most of the time ada purpose tersendiri..menyelam sambil minum air..helping my dad and doing other freelance thinging which also cuma utk my family members..well i enjoyed it so much!

my room make over still dlm process.memandangkan tuan punya diri yg hilang entah kemana2 kan.well few basic thgs sudah lama d beli d ikea..lampu gantung itu sungguh tak sbr mau tunggu d pasang oleh my dad.kipas bila mau tukar ahh?nnti lah itu nnti..

divan@ katil ala2 d hotel itu juga sudah d beli.cuma msih tersadai d kk.pas raya nnti cari lori tumpang utk d bawa p labuan..tema putih telah bertukar menjadi dark blue@ black and red. coz its hard to get perfect white d kk apa tah lagi d labuan.nvm next time tema itu akan d penuhi.

sementara org bz beraya dan membersihkan rumah utk raya.saya pulak sibuk mencari almari baju.tidak mau build in lah.tidak sbr mau tunggu dan kos nya juga tidak berbaloi untuk bilik comel ini..insyallh next time rumah lain yg akan memastikan bilik lyn seperti futsal court.:)thank to my dad yg melayan karenah saya hari ne..thnx kerana menjadi penaja.LOVE U dad and mom ( even mom bising2 coz i menyemak di hari2 mau raya ne)
statement yg paliang lawak of the day from my dad " engko sibuk2 mau beli skrg ne napa?beraya d bilik kah?" hahhaha but yet u still layan me.. :)

dad cepatin deh belikan cat bilik ne..ndak sbr mau tukar warna ne!

p/s : di sini ingin mengucapkan selamat hari raya in advace.

cheers

im still alive

sorry for missing in action for ths past few weeks i guess even more thn a month kali ahh..i was unable to update due to few reason : such as loggin problem, was bz menjadi pengangur @ jobless, was in kl for my graduation ( emmm it was on the 24th and d kl frm 22 till 29th july..emm yup mls update time d kl coz i was lazying around myself there..
30th july pulak d kk..urgent!!penganggur ini juga ada urgent..personal urgency plus plus bored to be in Labuan!!yet mls mau update loggin prob as well..kasi masuk passwrd betul2 pun masih salah juga.mampus lah!!i dunt thk so ppl care if not upadate my blog either. :P
emm bila pulak balik labuan?emm lupa lah..myb around 7th august kot balik labuan..hv a great reason to b in labuan tht day..ada szue may balik labuan...yer ker?hehhehe kira ok lah juga tu..memang plain mau balik pun..patut nya balik kk few days after balik labuan!!tapi ndak jd coz sudah terlalu mls pulak mau travelling berterusan..pramugari pun ada cuti pas fly on duty kan..so do i!!ceh..
so semasa d labuan pulak..memang sungguh berjaya my aggur!!gila punya berjaya..tidur makan..tidur makan..tidur makan AND SICK!!tht a big reason babe! All med seems dosent work!ok leave it biar kan immune system bekerja sendiri..pengaggur tidak memerlukan MC..trying to hlp my dad bussiness indirectly and giving service to anyone who need my hlp..free lance lah kunun kan..dealing with thgs i never do before sound interesting.well no profit yet!!! eeee there is charity thinging emm actually menyampaikan bantuan nyer prorgram yg patut d attend 23rd ne d Dorset Hotel Labuan wakil for my family ..emm sorry ler yer masih tidak yakin .on top of it ill b in kk by tht time..:P

today im updating my blog early in mornin and entry sound sooo bored!!byk sgt tulis coz blast frm all my missing entry selama ne..hehehe..today isnyallh i ll b in kk..and drive my little car for a first time out frm labuan..test power dulu..

registration with MMC malaysian medical council on process..borang sudah hntr..insyallh semua ok..SPA lagi mau follow up..KKM will settle in kk..isnyallh

im still alive

currently in in kl..will fly bck to labuan tomorw morning flight..relaxin my mind and body here..catchin up with my old2 good gurlfriend just made my day..never tot tht most of us facing alomst similiar story in ths life..tht y we are friends i guess..well im sure all of us deserved better life and ...its make me change my mind to work in kl..aisehh..

activity yg sudah d buat : small shoppin..walkin around..window shoppin..relaxin at home, ctachun up and gossiping wth my gurls..eat and eat..and eat..soon will diet ya :P

well tht all for now..im updating via digi broadband and fyi skrg dlm kereta..hehe.. :)

bad n bed day

my blog might sound fck up from now and onwards..for how long no body knws.since it one of my therapy so pls jgn ada mana2 yg tersinggung or apa2 lah..if taksuka jgn baca..
im sure tht everyone went tru sumtg hard..sadness..sorrow and etc.so myb its wat im going tru now.so bila melalui mesti tak sbr mau end the sorrow.but sumtimes we forgot tht it actually cant be forgotten..sumhow it may remain deeply sumwhr in our mind@ heart.itu ada lah process healing.
itu lah kan tidak ada apa yg sempurna dan tiada ada yg kekal..yg hidup pasti akan pergi ..yg idup pun pandai berubah2..jd victim memang ndak best..best if kita yg menyebabkan sesuatu yg buruk itu..rasa mcm headacche pun ada..rasa mcm jd mls pun ada..rasa mcm2..mixed up.

btw i pray for the best

di antara dua darjat..

process membaik pulih cardiosclerosis memang mcm2 therapy kena buat..kesabaran juga ada lah salah satu yg di pescribe..yg tidak ada di pharmacy.now adays i managed to control my anger..yay..that y now im bloigging to throw away all the sadness..i dunt need ppl to understand coz im lazy to xplain.so never boder to ask..just wait and c..i keep all my curiosity my anger..my sadness deeply in my heart..and i hope it wont become toxic inside my body system.i just wann be more more positive and stonger externally n internally.i understand now tht life is not easy and can become so so so so cruel.dont be afraid of it..semua kesusahan itu kerna Tuhan tahu bahawa kita mampu melaluinya..terimalah apa2 cobaan itu sebagai satu anugerah yg akan mendewasakan kita..

re think..

now bnyk benda yg d fikir..yg d fikirkan berulang2 kali..shitz ok its not easy to begin sumthg and not easy to begin new life..now im think i wanna work sumwhere else instead of malaysia..d mana tu nnti lah kasi tau ..emmmm so now kena lah pelan cari info kan..well i hope wt ever the best itu lah yg akan d lalui..:) skrg ne kan rasa mau ajar tution pun ada..mau jd pembaca berita tv3 pun ada.astaga..my head sudah tidak stable..utk jd tutor memang ndak susah.ada tranning center sendiri kan.tapi mostly itu untk baitulmal student..paymentt jak belm sure.tp..ok will gv a try..company sendiri kan..hhahaha..i will charged more :P

sony lagi

i thk its true to say my faith with sony so so so so for real..ada dlm entry yg lalu cerita pasal sony kan..Tx5 sony..yg waterproof tu..hehhe..time graduation tu my mom pulak bawa tx1..gold color..cun lah juga.tapi kenapa lah pulak dia beli tx1..emmmmm..bt of coz yg lebih2 guna mesti lah me lah..heheheh..but ada cerita sedih lah pulak pasal ne..tp yes TX1 awsome ..
but TX5 sudah pun berada di sini..with me..purple color..yes2..love it..belum lagi ada kesempatan mau explore hbs camera ne.but for sure mau try betul2 dlm air ne..hehehhe..cooooool :)

archivment sepanjang cuti2 tidak bergaji

ok rasa sudah mula2 gelisah d labuan..dan resah kerana cuaca yg sot2..tidak suka panas dan juga tidak suka hujan yg berlebihan yg d ikuti dengan dentuman guruh yg amat scary..menganggu kualiti memandu d malam hari sepanjang ketiadaan Mr s...
but i can feel the diff this time..feel happy able to catch up wit my old2 good friends..and yes they are alwz my friends..i wont feel ths labuan so so so empty like before. :P great..thnx to maslyn, michelle,amy,nana hong, joanita,baby,and siapa2 lagi lah yg tidak tesebut ne..as long as we keep in touch its more thn enough for me :) love it..lepaking..spending times to do nothing here in labuan so so so so meaningful for me..esp jumpa geng utk melepak lagi :) hehehheeheh

mr s lama lagi balik ne..ayyaaa....make my self bz so i wont really realize hw slow the times flies actually :)

 now im looking for any part time job tht dosent required much time, energy and flexible..like home tutor and prefer mathematic for primary school :)

my room baru siap restructured and buang2 few thgs..belum siap lagi..will be cont later saja lah..esp bab2 painting the wall tu kan.. :) dlm end of the month lah..ir rajin lagi before p kl ne buang few stuff lagi :)

again and again

tadi ter tengok lah pulak lagi movie confession of a shoperhollic.i guess it my 4th time wathching it..heheheh love this movie.lady in green scarf masih mampu kasi menangis and membazir my air mata utk movie ne..so sweet bah!!heheheh..kan best kalau dpt bf yg mcm mr brandon tu..org selalu ckp kan relationship is betwwen 2 diff person with completly diff background, interest and etc2..myb ada lah sama2 sikitkan..tht y it needs an effort to work it out.hw if its kinda very hard to xpln the other patry wat we need from his side?emmmm..kalau other party tu jenis selamba thp gaban pun kan susah juga tau..yg susah may faham thgs in silent..emmmmm melalut pulak sudah ne kan..well everyone enjoy thursday night ..esok jumaat sudah..

cheers

lidut@ lambat

sir (speel it right) ada tengok kah d tv..Sgt best..mecabar minda sendiri juga..bgs2 utk budak2..tapi itu bukan topic utama hari ne.topic nya ia lah sehari sepatah kata..since im from labuan..so kami pun ada dialec tersendiri..ayat2 pelik kamus dewan bahasa labuan..hhhheh sama mcm org2 sarawak ada bm sarawak sendiri..kuala terengganu,kelantan dan lain2 negeri lagi juga ada dialec masing2 kan.
so ayat hari ini lidut atau juga bertebiat .yg membawa maksud lambat @ melengah-lengahkan sesuatu contoh ayat : 1. kenapa bah ko ani lidut banar membuat keraja? = kenapa kamu ne sgt lambat@ melengah2kan kerja ne?( lebih kurang mcm tuy lah yer)
2.bertebiat jua ko ne bersiap= lambat juga kamu ne bersiap..

teringat kan ayat lidut ne hari ne coz i just relazie hw lidut iam to clear up my room..im expecting on the 16th july dpt sudah cat dinding bilik ne..


today sudah mula bosan..dan ala2 benci nya my love mau fly sudah..i'll be more2 bored.. ok ok yg penting jgn lupa bawa sony vaio ne p dubai yer...emmmmm dan jgn lupa list2 utk d shopping later..less stressful ths time coz i'll be away too later....so so so basically we wil landed together lah balik labuan ya.:P

so jgn lupa ulang kaji ayat oif the day..
click2 on my nuff too ya

Relaxing day

opss i was missing in action..wasnt able to update my blogs..was too bz relaxing my mind. :) 

my kittens hearty and orev still in quarantin and they are stay healthy..sedih hati ne tiap kali kasi tinggal after visiting..hope they find there..misssssssss u both :)

today ( 7/7/2010) was kinda relaxing day even i hv to wake up morning with heavy sleepy head..semua gara2 world cup ya..ayoo..tengh hari hantar kereta p cuci..p shampoo..p foot spa..yg tidak d rancang dan p facial..wahhh thn malam p main pool dan improve sudah kunun nya ..sungguh menyegarkan..cuma sayang nya may first d labuan sudah tutup pulak..kira mau p check it up lah mana tau ada program2 yg menarik..pening kepala memikirkan slim world yg cuma ada d kk tiada d labuan ne..emmm oh my mr Dear..can u pls consider im still OK wit S size.. :p well well well yes mau maintain tapi diet tak ada..damn it lah..tak mau jadi baloon..statement yg mengerunkan when he said tht if body mcm ne skrg..few years later kan..emm lagi2 after giving birth kan..abis lah jd mcm balloon..shitz..this is shitzz.. :P menakutkan ahhh tapi masih juga p makan saja kan :P

cheers every one

package 3 h 2m d pulau labuan

sudden package tidak di rancang d labuan..and i was unregisted tour guide yg baru jak balik less thn a week n masih2 lupa2 lagi jln d bndr labuan yg sbg besar itu..hehehehhrhrh semua ini gara2 mummy yen and his one come down to my small island..it was great day whille they were around..

antara activity meriah ; round2 labuan yg besar itu..berpanas d memorial park.night2 life..karaoke ..lepak2 makan..after almost 10months plus ndak jumpa..of coz rindu sama mandakz2 ne..soon will join the HO CLUB in kk..:)

btw masih dlm mood mls2 menupdate blog..btw will try my very best to update

cheers everyone

unsettle thgs

i feel like i dont have time either for myself  nor to accomplish my thgs.still not done unpack my stuff.still my room just look the same..i will do at least sumtg today..no matter how..hehehe
im  damn lazy to drive now adays.bt my works seems like part time driver..bawa mama beli itu ini lah..whoch most of them brg2 my grandma yg perlu d beli..haruskah beli hari2?baik kita borong kedai2 d labuan ne..org gaji d rumah sana tu memang org gaji bertuah..pemls..masak pun mls..kemas pun ala kadar..beli brg p kedai pun ndak mau..baik kamu ndak payah kerja..

im started getting bored here..its a bad sign for me..i guess i should continue my mission to transform my room becoming transformer room.ayooo...today gonna be another day which will make my head twisted 360 degree..even tho im jobless now it dosent mean i have notg to do..bunch of bored thgs awaiting  for me..buekkk...

i wish all ths extra exazerating thgs will over soon..amin

hatii berbunga2

kenapa kah hati berbungga tat kala confrm jd penganggur tidak bergaji skrg ne?hehehheheh dengan cuaca panas and hujan ..hati tetap berbungga..wlpn dlm hati masih lagi sesak dengan unpack yg tidak pandai hbs2.coz rasa nya mau clear my room first before hbs kan semua unpack..sakit mata memandang bilik comel ne yg penuh dengan brg2..ayooo tu lah kan beli brg ndak tengok2..heheh but yet tetap happy.baju baru yg d oder selama dlm temph 6 -9 bulan memang bnyk.heheh happy2..belum lagi dengan beg collection yg d bawa balik dari russia and yg memang baru d angkut balik dari bercuti2 russia..dan dengan present dari my love one and my dad memang able to make me smile mcm iklan moooo dulu2..hehehhe

kasut lagi belum sampai rumah ne..ala cepat lah sampai..and my kitten lagi blm selamat balik msia..faster2 cheqa waiting for u guys here..:)

currently my head keep on thinging ayoooo how lah to work later..mls nyer..mahu goyang kaki saja..thinking of how can i get money to pay tax for my car..aprox around 40k rm plus..uhuk2..derma2 ah sikit yer

plan for today jd driver @ supir to my mom

p/s : ada story2 panas mau kongsi sikit saya sangt panas sama org ne yg kira2 alim tapi sama saja pun pakai tudung kalau kasi2 tunjuk juga ur hair and aurat sama yg bukan muhrim jgn mau act like u alim gila okey..( tidak d tujukan kepada org2 yg baru mau start2 pakai tudung lah..coz i thk if i juga yg mau mula guna akan jd mcm tu juga ) tapi kes ini kepada yg all ths while mcm2 alim tahap dewa and act like one..but infact bikin panas saja.

tapi itu saja mau kasi panas cerita hari ne coz skrg sejuk skit hujan

cheers

fever bola

memang tak best tengok bola pagi2 buta ne..skrg ne rindu terngok bola d russia coz timing ws just nice.ptg and paling lmbt pun jam 10pm..huhu..brazil punya pasal i still awake now for them..uhuhukk..so far score 2-0..great..

tonight was a great night ...dating after 10 months apart feel sooooooo different..hhehehe..mengengada..;p
sgt rindu selama ne sampaui ndak berenti pot pet pot pet..evento s lil bit ssd coz next month he will leaving to india and dubai for a lil while but be cool...coz nw im here for good.if last time he will never fly anywhere if im around..but this time is for mamali's weeding ( his friend)...so just let him go..and on top of it boleh pas kan sonyvaio cute moleh ne utk d touch up d dubai,..hehhee....

p/s : attn time tengah tiping2 ne minit ke 59 brazil scor lagi gol ke 3..great..hehehhehe

ok lah everyone..keep on wacthing fifa world cup but jgn sampai jatuh sakit atau stress..hehehhe...

cheers

masih lagi timing russia..:P

sudah dlm 2 hari d lbn..hari2 bgn awal..mcm mana mau berehat ne..bgn awal coz baby2 menjerit d rumah my grandma..binggit..d rumah pulak bgn jam 6am ..ayoo hntr my lil bro school.emmm wat a great day..yet my head masih binggung2 mau masuk tidur pun susah2..
so far yet my head so sleepy..

so far my day memang tak ada apa2..tidur tengh hari..bgn ptg p clinic..round2 kereta baru..hehhehe..overall i like to feel free this day :)

Home sweet Home

safely landed in labuan on the 26th june 2010 around 9.20pm..the feeling was sooo different when i just hthat im home forgood now..on the way bck all the way during the flight i was keep on thinging how thgs gonna be..how it will feel like..and im ready for the worst..:) but so far im happy for evertg.eventho right after landed has to go to my grandma house and stay there..but it so worth.sambutan kecil2lan tapi half of my important family memebers was there..thank u every one..love the flower..and doa hajat and doa tolak bala harap di makbulkan..a few days ago sumthing bad was happend at my grandma house..but as long as everyone safe it wat more important :) amin

big suprise on the next day after my arrival was really2 touch me..thnk my dear for the flower,cake and the lovely prresent..love it ..muaxx..muaxx..muaxxx..

and another big suprise from my dad..heheheh really touch by tht..love the Car..really comfort ..:)

ucapan2 selamat kemabli dari kawan2 lain juga amat d hargai :)

p/s : will update abt my last trip soon..

fast entry..

16th june 2010
0338
nikitskaya street

Still awake just to update my blogs..wow..not really actually..i just done cooking nasi beryani and ayam goreng for bekalan tengah hari esp for my parents and my lil bro..they will landed in moscow aprox around 2.20pm local time.yay..cant wait for it..i feel lonely ths few days when other parents are alrdy arrived while my parents masih lagi belum2 muncul tiba..but bgs juga lah i can settle my uni thiging and all my interview dengan tenang..i found out tht every day waking up early and going out and settle all thgs..damn it!!but yes end up all thgs done..just have to wait for the graduation~happy2 day..another thgs tht made my day today was : yes my name entitle to get an certificate as one of the most active and successful student in sports ( perasan)..hahahha well i dunt get the Dean list..far away from it anyway... :)) and another thg : was having great early dinner with my lovely2 futsal mate ..love u all gurls..hope there is another opportunity again for us to meet up again and kicking the ball!!YAY!

okey will write more abt my past interview ..but overall it was OK Easy..Luck was really on my side :))


doakan semoga journey dan segala2 nya selamat..

cheers

Extremly bad day

my mission to send my kitten back FAIL..stupid Thai airways..stupid bangkok- kl connection..damn it..7 kittens  stranded today. petty thm..sudah lah cuaca panas kan.few hours trying to figure out things..and to sort it out..calling there n there..even till get an small orientation about how the warehouse a cargo procedure and etc..i guess Mr Igor just tried to kill some times..so so so so sad u knw..btw still hoppung for 18th june..bt few thgins has to redo like renew the export permit..get notary for petition ( coz guna via org lain untuk hantar kucing for declaration in moscow nnti).kena ada Notary u knw..plus copy passport  plus CTC.damn leceh kan.dengan hampanya balik lah ke kursk..

too much of cabaran and benda2 yg tak betul jd hari ne.form small things to medium to big2 things..so so so feed up..antara beberapa yg menyakitkan ate dan menabahkan ke susahan urusan di sini when i just get to knw tht actually my parents gonna landed in moscow on the 16th instead of 15th..astaga..yg beli and booked ticket ne memang makan telur bnyk sgt!!dah ckp lama dari dulu kan 15th from KL..MEAN 15TH JUNE JAM 2AM FLIGHT..BUKAN 15TH JUNE  JAM 5AM FROM LAiBUAN....~~omg geram2..geram2..mean less thn in kursk for them..rushing day for my graduation..rushing for packing...and rushing to leave kursk for next destination..kenapa kah org yg pandai ne lagi bijak sana ne buat tikect mcm ne!!marah and sedih yg sampai nangis okey..just too tired to figure out another plain..since my kitten thinging unsettle..buat notary and export permit bukan benda yg indah!! sungguh sakit2 ate.berusahalah kamu semua settle kan hal ticket ne..esok pagi jgn lupa confrm kan..TU LAH KAN DEGIL ORG KATA BIAR JER ORG BUAT SENDIRI GUNA AGENCY YG KENAL  AND LAGI CEKAP..NAK BUAT HARAP ORG KAT OFFICE TU SENDIRI..JD NYA KAN..JDNYAKAN BUAT SALAH!!SALAH FEMAHAMAN ADA LAH KERNA MAKAN TALUL BANYAK SGT.

org2 yg suka buat sakit ate pun membuatkan ate and mencari2 sakit ate hari ne..bodoh sial!!memang rasa mcm ndak jd demam semua benda goes wrong..bodoh okey!!memang marah  tahap dewa..sudah lama tidak marah ne..esok interview apa jd pun jd lah..tak kuasa mau baca apa2..mampus lah..

for those yg mencari pasal and mengada2 tu kan i wish your day esok akan jd most hilarious day in ur life!serious shitz

Do Sony is my faith?

OMG..i fall in love with this TX5 Model..my first digital camera about 5 years ago was Sony too..the thinnest version and the first thinnest version from sony ( forget the model number) ..it was black in color and super2 cool for tht moment ..bough for about 1.7k rm ( from Berjaya times Square shopping mall ).

than a year ago I bough sony DSLR alfa 200 as my first Dslr camera..and now i fall in love agin with this TX5 model coz of the features  water proof..boleh bawa masuk air till 3m               

deep..amazing .love it.. ( more in for in nuff nug ..click2 on it)

Finale day for my kitten in kursk

tonight @ early morn around 1am will leaving to Moscow ..journey will take about 8 hours from Kursk.
kinda sad and surely gonna miss both of them Orev and Hearty..:)
i hope all thgs will be smooth and bez problema..:insyallh..will hiding back to kursk again once all the procedure done ..i need to reach kursk back asap..SPA interview are waiting for me on the 14th of June 9am.davai..

today kinda of tiring day..do there n there and there..latest experience was : learn how to predict and read the football gambling..since its legal here so nothing to worry about..no one will ambush and so on..

look at the monitor @ board.baca lah u mcm forex i rasa..heehheheh

i was desperately to get 3k rm today..to send my kitten off to msia..so i was thinking if i dunt able to get the money so i will gamble to day..but if i lost..i will be more in danger..hahahahha..i short abt 1k rm..so i was having abt 8h to solve my thgs..my dad was missing in action..and i was try my very best to jd along kutip duit sana sini....and domestic fee terpaksa lah my aunty rina yg uruskan dulu..thank u...hahhahahhehe..well gambling football ne i tak expert lah ekk..so i get confused...heheh even england nv usa pun pikir2 nak ker tak..mana lah tau seri pulak kan..naya2...so nvm i skip this gamble thinging..wait till my dad reach here..jom2 kita gambling~~hahahahhah..

my next vacation destination : Jakarta and bali..( cian ndak pernah sampai )..thn next i wanna go to Monaco and i wish to be there for a month and jd lah apa2 pun and bermimpi2 berjumpa Mr right and ruin my life there.hahaha :)) wat a wild though.. :P

well to my lovely reader..i m worry if i wont be able to update my blogs till 15th of june coz they is bunch of thgs to do and my schedule kinda full..:)) mengada2 jer bunyi kan..but i will try my best to update :) and wish me safe journey ..success in my interview opss before hand pls pray hard along with me that Thai cargo wont give me problems..

cheers..

My dream

11th june 2010

2328 

Nikitskaya sreet,kursk russia

story about kursk and russia almost towards the end..sob..sob..sob..

soon i wont have much idea for writing since i'll just gonna be at home and do all bored and same and same old thgs.well im looking forward to make over my room..yay!!

i hates destruction from my phone esp while im charging it..the light keep on blink2 so i tot there is incoming call...uh!!benci2..hehehe :))

so lets end the benci2 part.begin with sumthg a lil bit of fairytale story abt my dream @ thgs tht i wish to archive someday insyallh:) i wanna be success but  bukan suckss .  i wanna be one of important and rich person in this world ( emm melampau2) .but at the same time im lazy to work..and at the same time yet i wish i could be come specialize..( well mau study lagi ne ) mana ada dpt free2..well lets figure it out later2..hehehhe

but yes of coz i wanan be rich!! or at least i dunt have to bother abt my $$$ and $pening!! so mean i need to work hard..( Work??) eshh!!

i wanna live happily ever after in europe..( not decided yet d mana)..but at the same time i dunt wanna wait till my age 50 to archive it!! i wana be happy alwz even tho if faith saying i wont found my Mr right due to less population or due to bnyk yg transform jadi mak nyah!! as long as i got the $$$ and carrier and myb super2 rich and able to make all siblings happy too..hahahha not coz of $$ only ya.coz we can travel around the world~~~haahhaahhhahahaaha :)) jika kamu syng kakak mu ini hanya ker na mi$$$ aku terajang kamu!! wow!! 

wat else ???emm no idea lagi lah....oh ya i want at LEAST X3 ( if X6 alhamdullilah) :))..emmm i want 7 hantaran tidak bnyk...i dunt care if hantran itu untk apa sekali pun..i can call it as 7 present for my self from who ever it may be concern..hahahah lain org mau kawin lain org mau hadiah..:)) 

well for now own i just wana enjoy my remaining days in kursk..and cant wait on the 15th..to fetch my parents and my lil bro in moscow..and rock my days.. 

i wanna be super super super super women who begin from scratch~~and someday i can be proud of it

p/s : to my dad im still remember the conversation regarding the iphone 4..i wont mine selling off my HTC..hahaa lawak2..mau mau mau mau juga~~

another rongeng day bersama my kitten2

again woke up around 9am..shower.main sama kucing and breakfast and settle all online transaction and ready2 to bring my kittens to vet and to sumwhere over the rainbow just to declare them and get certificate for export them bck to msia..ayooo another pening day..aprox it cost me 3kRM to ship them bck to msia.plus all logistic and etc2..hope they will stay healthy alwz. my kitten just almost same value for LV bag.. :)) so they gonna be my handbag!! haahhaah

i heard to day at 4pm there will be a graduation rehearsal ~gosh..i dunt feel like im really relaxing after my xm..it jst tht my brain are rest but physically NO!!Packing..cleaning..cleaning...baking..coooking ( opss blm ada masak lagi for ths whole week)..ayoooo need to buy groceries lagi..need to ready myself to go mosocow to send my kitten off ths saturday midnight frm kursk..basically no rest till i'll reach msia~~ :)but im happy for it..perhaps i can lost my weight and fat!! :))