Eid al-Mawlid an-Nabawi

to all muslimin and muslimah..eid mawlid an nabawi or eid maulidurrassul..as remembrance of our prophet Rasullullah S.W.T

here in russia..i dunt feel it much..rmm or myb i dunt feel it at all..coz no celebration or wat so eva.btw yet i still remember coz ppl remind me..well its better thn nothg..:)

too little time..but too much time wasted

again i just realize how soon my final state xm will be..yet still i cant focus..not even yet started look at the xm list question.i dunt where to begin..but im reading and study..more to my own understanding.BUT im worry abt classification thinging esp its invaded by Russian ..arrrrghhhhh..i hope Mdm larisa will be able to hlp my brain to compile all the info become a real info and as she said her job is to ensure we ready to bring all the knowledge as in a big luggage to our clinical life..wow..so inspiring..and burning on a dancing floor.. 
time tick tok..tick tok..tick tok.and yet i cant managed.alwz hope tomorw is the day for my changed..lets pray..insyallhh

after long weekend break~~

feel so lazy to wake up in the morning..and my body still paining there and there after the physical training last weekend..damn!! :) and actually nothing much to share today rather thn today we have patient wit diagnosis : final stage of kidney failure who will undergo kidney transplantation abt 6months from now.arterial venous fistula are alrdy transplant and ready for hemodiaysis( utk cuci darah ). prognosis are good even in final stage of kidney failure according to GFR rate . coz she is young 30years old and in good general condition and no other organ are affected..insyallh she will be fine.


and today ... :) we meet Dr prosolov to" hand over" present to him as f or "men's day ) hehehe...blushing and tersipu2 dia.. hahahhahaha...well hope he will remember all of us alwz :) amin


i guess my brain are hypoxic today coz i keep on feel sleepy..tht too bad!! 


p/s : dad pls..pls..read and reply my sms asap..the bloody maybank atm card seems giving me trouble here..only a few atm card can read my card now..it was just fine when i was in europe..if possible pls send me any card tht can be used internationally :) 

Fist trial infinity downline

check out this link : no harm :P

http://www.infinitydownline.com/?id=defao

im kinda new and looking forward to invite new members..well i guess since its my first time try to join this kinda of stuff and  i did asked around those who join this..so i have confident to join this..insyallh jika niat itu betul..maka akan d permudahkan lah ekk..nt to become a millionair..just to try..

good luck evryone

Dr/ Sir Prosolov ..

 last saturday  we having class on saturday,its kinda victory if there is no class on saturday!my beloved teacher Dr prosolov just cant "dismiss" us on saturday@ cant stop missing us ??hahahha..btw this morning i was damn lazy and it took me abot 15mint on the bed to think either wanna go class or not? thn i has to go by cab ..lambt suda bah and mls mau jln..

im feel so luck to be in class today COZ sir/  Dr Prozolov was totally different today..he become so nice to us..having conversation abt life..he wonder why we dunt hv bf/gf / just get along with russian ppl here..hehehe and he dunt believe tht we still not mastering the language..ahhaah..coz we have bog barrier here..international student and classes are separated frm other russian student..:) he look more cuter and handsome once he changed to be sumone more approachable ..cehhhh..its not only my view ya..the other of my group mate also said so ..and coz of it we were decided to gv him present as for 'Man's day'..:)

and today seems the first time eva happened when Dr Natalia seems begging to teach us for the other week of therapy cycle..hahahha..there is another story behind tht..which im not interested to write here.


as conclusion : im happy for every single thgs happened :)

MY name is ...

i just watched hindi movie after suggested from my friend who also watched it wit english subtitle..
movie title : MY NAME IS KHAN..main acctress : Shah rukh khan and kajool..yay..great..both of them are my fav hindi actress and of coz once they togthr in the movie it makes the story more spices..HOT..HOT..
First class story line..not economy class...( sound indian)..hahhahahha:)) no offence.
do u guys wanna me share the story line? ok gv u some hint ya..its kinda based on real situation tht happened last  time back in america since the 11/sept incident..how muslim has been treated..and etc.story are cover almst every aspect : family,love,religion,humanity and more and more..u guys should dwnld it..but since it is a new movie so it wont hv the dvdrip quality yet.but due to my " CANT WAIT!!" I just downloaded it n watched it..

MY NAME IS KHAN AND IM NOT A TERRORIST


enjoy

ugly betty

i guess im so out dated lah..coz im just started watching this ugly bettey series ( english version ya)..i did watch the Spanish version long time back ago..emmm over 10 yeears ago i guess..while i was bck in hight school..gosh i can remember how i been waiting every 4.30pm to watch tht series on tv..hahahahaha..now evrythg download jer..:)) i guess the story line will be about the same as previous betty..and so far wat i can remember the betty here in english version emm do really look like previous betty~~

ok who eva watched it till the latest season now..dunt bother to tell me how to stories look like..coz keep it surprise for myself.hahaahha..

on the way bck from class today after such a long day in hospital i was thinking abt Blair..Blair Waldrof in Gossip Gurl series..emmmm out of now way..coz actually she not tht bad in that story,coz there is ppl who sucker thn her character in ths real life~~:))

mY heart feel sumthing..

Introduction of the day : i so surprise me when Dr prosolov call my full name " Mazliana " for the 1st time correctly..emmm okey..and he asked me " Why were u absent yesterday " and i replied him " i was fall down on the snow sir" with my big smile~~and again he replied me " OH okey..be careful next time " hahahahha okey nothing smell so scandalous ..coz mdm elena was there.. :))


ok my main point here is : i was on the phone wit my mom,my sis and my lil bro..there is few thgs i wanna talk abt wit them actually 1. i want to knw wat game are they bough there..emm i heard my bro buying a drum set.( GAME ONE ya) not yet buying the real set..


2. i wanna inform my mom my graduation date wish is its gonna be on the 28th JUNE 2010..Yay...scared!!


btw in between the conversation with my mom, she was telling me abt my dad condition..health condition..emm its the only perfect time to talk abt it since he is not around my mom now..he went to tawau and sipadan.okey have fun there thn~~my mom told me tht my dad having sudden loss weight,pale,nocturia,  and often feel sleepy,pale. as medical student while taking medical complaint frm patient it so much important in oder to make a diagnosis..but when it come to ur family member..it more to fear..fear to knw the exact diagnosis..and yes i knw my dad having DM ( Diabetis melitus ) @ high sugar in blood..everytime i ask him..he will tell me he is fine..and all are normal.he even has his own glucosemetry at home..so he can monitor himself.
but he so reluctant to take medicine for it..as family history pre disposition to have DM and etc..im suggesting him to take medicine..and today i was able to xpln my mom the pathogenesis and the possible complication..but i knw my dad wont listen to me..and im insist my mom to persuade our panel Dr to xpln again to my dad..if he cant do it..it so frustrated things coz as a DR we shuld be able to do it..coz pain and tears are part of our life..and bla2..we need to have the strong point and power even it hurting ur patient but the main thing is to ensure and to safe ur patient life..one day ur patient will thank full to u aS DR..
And it more painful for Dr if patient are reluctant /when the treatment are unsuccessful..
and so do i as his daughter is so tearful when i get to knw my dad are still reluctant..pls i need u to take the medicine.you should knw how much I love u and how much evryone..and ech of ur children love u~~as much u love us..and it might more and infinity~~~


and i was telling my mom my wish to continue studying ..she seems reluctant..she wants me to b in msia.yes so do i ..i promising my self i will only continue studying if i get sponsorship..coz i knw its time for my other siblings to use money ya~~) insyallh God knw better wat is the best for me.




no matter wat i write now to overcome my feeling abt my dad..it just dosen't go..remain here in my heart..i pray for you and my other family members for our good health and wealthy and etc.


there is some other things tht im not share it here.but just let i keep tht one..


everyday is a love day..for us to show our love towards all ppl we love..


and i love all of u who love me 




cheers everyone


p/s : will play guitar hero as much i can to overcome ths feeling~~ :))

Important of ortopedic care

there is some important things tht i would like to share about ....

today after my therapy class which i was abt dying to keep my eyes open widely..i just so sleepy..but at the same time knw tht it so much important to keep on listening to the case study tht conducted abt joint diseases...which Dr larisa correlated it with LORD OF THE RING character..she just so dedicated and has such great skill in delivering and sharing her knowledge.:)

well wat much important story of the day is ..after class i went to accompanying dila to the orthopedic pharmacy there u can get consultation as well for free.tht the best part about russia...senang kan jumpa pakar.btw ..ortopedic mean pakar tulang2 ..dila was suggested to visit this clinic coz of her complain of flat foot.

here link which u can have a look at abt flat food :

http://orthoinfo.aaos.org/topic.cfm?topic=A00173

so so ..alang2 sudah ..i also insist to ask the dr opinion abt my frequent back pain..or kind of muscle stiffness which not so pronounce as before after using the ortopedic matters support. than she want to have a look at my foot as well.coz it may b causes by the abnormalities on ur foot or anytg related..emmm and its kinda im having 1st degree of flat foot and my great toe kinda inwards towards my 2nd toe knw as HALLUX VALGUS..reffer her http://footandankle.mdmercy.com/conditions/bigtoe/hallux_valgus.html..bt mine nt as bad as in the picture on the side ya..:)

so to corrected it : The dr recommended us to wear the ortopedic insoles :

    ortopedic insoles : different type of foot will need different type of it .

and to corrected my hallux valgus : Dr recommended to wear sumthg like rubber thgs tht i need to put in between great toe and 2nd toe:

   tht the things..the white rubber stuff..:)

                                          sorry for the background.

total of buying all ths thing about 1002ROUBLES ONLY.= RM 136.00  still i guess it worth emm after 5% discount as medical student and + free consultation~~ 

so i thk its enough regarding my ortopedic story.anythg feel to free to ask me..:))

good day everyone

Long Time ago : on the way from Paris to moscow/kursk via london

okey here we begin with it was on the 2nd feb 2010,location holiday  villa, 3 star hotel own by datin ... tak ingat nama, so obviously its own by malaysian women, and so proud of it.they have few branches in malaysia especially.and i would like to recommended to any1 who might have trip to paris, and its better to booked online as price for online booking better than direct/ walk in price.here are link tht u might used to a booking side :http://www.holidayvillaparis.com/, or u may tru under  thie side http://www.booking.com/, which u can easily fine and good deal for hotel prices.and there is few other side that u might have a look. thru my experience its worth to do online research before u travel.same goes to air line fare..but i was making last minute trip decision so i have to pay almost full fare,but still the price not so bad .
ok here we go..back to the main story. on tht day diana and i seems so reluctant to fly back to russia..gosssh..the feeling surely wast tht good all the time when eva we start thinking abt kursk esp.Diana is my housemate and my partner in crime for ths eurotrip!!haahahaha..and due to my sudden planning to go back to msia..my head started to wanna burst out thinking on how to changed my booking ..my emirates open ticket from moscow to kl.was thinking to buy one way ticket to msia frm london but it seems so expensive..but its not easy as well to changed my moscow- kl coz it less thn 24hours notice.emmm so so so the feeling getting worst ..mixed up feeling mau balik msia juga!mahu juga!!and tak nak balik kursk!!tidak~~~~~~~~ so since after done packing my head keep on thinking ech possible way to go fly bck to msia..even went to nearest travelling agency.but it seems all are expensive!ok i dunt feel interested to continue abt ths sad story.

ok while i was panic abt ths damn planning , Diana tried to reach our friend back in kursk to fine us a cab for us from moscow-kursk.dah mls nak naik train!! kes malas dah ne~~and time tu lah credit phone tak ada!!so shitty rite..nasib lah kan leh guna internet there..so try to reach kak farah and kak hir tru fb..and yes..we got it!!ok so one prob settle

so so so after tht we started feel hungry.its abt lunch time!so we decided just to grab anytg from lafeyyate area..hug shopping mall kinda like harrods standard.u can get all designer stuff!!wow..and near by there we found one indian restaurant.ok hentam saja lah.mls sudah.and the kinda manager or owner of the restaurant was asking where we were frm..of coz we are from malaysia..and thn out of now way he suddenly mention abt Shah Rukh Han..emm i guess i spell it wrongly.and i was kinda blur and say ooooooohh yes yes..hahahhaha thn he started explaning me tht most of the bollywood actress ever been to his restaurant..and he even show us all those pics after we finish our lunch!!wat a story

okey thn we went for small shopping there..and and thn run back to the hotel as our driver from the hotel will drive us to airport at 4pm.

it was only 1 hour flight paris-london. thn in london i tot it supposed to be long transit.but it wasnt.just abt 1 hour plus.luckily did check on the boarding pass.if not we will like spending more time on choosing wii/ box ..emm we managed to grab x box and 2 guitar hero ..yay!!thn we left abt 20mints before boarding time, and there i was just realized shitzzz I LOST MY JACKET~aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! no.check it out bck at the toilet and there is no more there~wow..where is my jacket.how can i forget abt it.its not journey back to msia..its to russia..where there is bloody bad weather! went tru lost and found counter and yes i get my jacket back.i tot i was almost miss my flight..and if tht happened myb tht mean i shuld just fly bck to msia! hahaah

thn reach moscow after 4 hours flight.and yet i wasted few hours emm myb 1 hour to double confrm my ticket   either i can fly back to msia or not..but end up the result was NO..okey..it was fucking shitzz feeling..cant xpln it.i was so sad,not so tired but prefer to sleep bt its kinda cold!the damn driver keep on open up the window for fresh air.and best part when he said he is sleepy and need fresh air to make him awake.WTF.Why dunt he just let me drive since its an auto car!asiiiihhhhh..thn there is one point when he was drive tru one area which full of snow.and i tot okey it might be a small short cut road.BUT Its not when the car suddenly stuck and seems stuck on the snow!!and yes we are stuck on the snow and ice!aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..it was took us abt 30mints ..trying and trying..he tried to push the car.and i handle the gear, accelerate and control the steering..but i dosent work ..untill one point 3 of us , diana,the driver and  i tried to pull the car ..wat a funny thgs..wt the snow..the ice..and it was CCCCCCOOOOOLLLLLD..!! Almost feed up!!and almost asked him to walk to the main road and asked for hlp.But luckily there is the truck tht used to clean the snow on the road side..yes!! Saviour of the day!

thn we able to reach kursk around almost 3pm local russia time..it wasnt a good feeling but at last we reach kursk after all ths shitty crappy thgs tht happend!:P

Eurortip 2010

undecided trip ..and last minute preparation dosent turn out tht bad~~ due to recession everyone bcom'e stingy @ kedekut..aishh.but end up due to sympathy maka d benarkan lah juga pergi..but seriously i believed if travelling by our own money tht we earn myb lain pulak cerita n rasa nya kan :)) well as final year student insyalh i feel thankful and great wit this trip

we been to : London, Amsterdam and Paris ...
London is my 2nd visit and yet i still love London..and the oxford street ~~~~haven..
Amsterdam and paris are both place tht i alwz dream to go~~and yay..end up dpt juga pergi..
Amsterdam i shuld come back again..wasnt have enough time~~ :) but the experience was so great!!
even finding way how to reach Paris from Amsterdam was really challenging and fun!! till today i still woder.do they only have one train company to Paris from Amsterdam / Brussel and near by places..train fare Ams- Paris by Thyls train almost cost about 130eruo ++ one way per person..
end up we finding another route : amsterdam -brussel ( 24euro) and thn brussel - paris again only by thyls but ast lest it was cost only abt 60euro..so total wont be as expensive as Ams- Paris..
thyls train such as fast train and providing Wifi  inside the train and only took us 1 hour frm brussel to paris.even almost miss the train incase we get stuck in brussel center station..so reminder and info for anyone who wann travel internationally frm brussel.dont stop at brussel central station but the next one called brussel-zuih ( sumthg like tht lah..cant remember).

Paris was such a country tht i eva wish to stayed and get PR..but i thk i changed my mind
btw Paris still such as great place to visit..esp those who love shopping but this time we more into visiting museum ( lourve museum ,effil tour, cathedral and of coz Desneyland )..kids shuld go to Desneyland..even i love it esp the adult section..wow..fantastic..all the rides was shaking my brain and my soul..love it..
and yg mahal nyer tu..we did meet up few of our unimate KSMU here and few other malaysia yg sombong giler..and ada juga sgt friendly..terjumpa gan malaysian yg used to be stayed at same hotel Holliday villa tht happen to be their parents tht on the morning before we leaving to desney asking where we goin..emmm really wat such a small word..

nigh tour paris was cool..really cool~~

sudden planning to fly bck to msia after ths trip didnt turn up as how i wish...ticket so expensive!!

btw overall i love this trip ...with all the memories..fall down at the escalator Auber @ opera station just a sign as we shuld at least have a look at the opera building..

thanx to Holiday villa's receptionist who were kinda really helpful ..

:)

NeVer be Ready

never be ready?


obviously im not ready to end my first sem as final med student..coz day by day my desired for reading just be in critical level..
getting doubt do i can do it..the weather and environment just so chalenging..wintter really make my barin froze and lazy to get up frm my bed and the comforter just so so lovely esp early in the morning!!damnn
never be ready to b an independent gurl..opss yes im still a gurl but not a little gurl any more and not yet a women.turning 25 years old this year 2010 seeems just a matter of no and not more thn day.
luckily my friend around here in russia just same as me who never realized abt our age coz obviously spending 6yearars just to get a medical degree just make us feel like we in high school insted of uni life~~heehhehhe..
not yet ready to b in another level of relationnship coz : graduate pun belum....kerja pun belum..duit pun tak ada..and on top of it..belum puas dengan kehidupan..


so far im thinking of skip the HO n continue my post graduate study..anyone any idea where ( which country/ which uni should i go?)..will it be a good idea? which shcoolarship pogram should i apply to?
im expecting PG ( POST GRAD) study abt 3 years...myb in O&G ( obstetric and gynecology)..any of my fellow friend pls do let me if u guys have any idea or info abt ths PG thinging..

Apa kah pengertian kehidupan?

sebagai manusia ini apa kah yg sebenarnya kita inginkan d dunia ini?
ada kah perlu d bahagikan kepada sub2 mengikut kepentingan?well no idea actually
apa kah makna sebenar kebahagian?adakah sekadar cukup lah ada keluarga yg lengkap : father,mother,siblings,etc
apa kah parameter yg d gunakan utk mengukur nya?rasanya tiada ..
tapi jika d tanya ada kah org mahu jadi miskin?hina?emm i dunt thk so..emm apa pulak jika d tanya ada kah org mahu kaya?and d sanjungi?
berapa ramai akan berkata tidak mahu kaya..tidak mahu jd d sanjungi?/ kaya and tak perlu d sanjungi/ 
tiada siapa yg akan pernah berasa cukup dengan apa yg d miliki hari sini selagi tidak tahu bersyukur. ini hanya lah renungan.


inferior complex just circulate tru all my vessel and nerve..y? myb to public to xpln..kerna itu lah saya tahu bahwa bukan mudah utk tahu bersyukur.
sesungguh nya tidak sabar utk menunggu kan saat d mana sudah bisa berdiri d kaki sendiri and melalui hidup ini dari bawah hingga ke tahap yg d impikan.tapi mampukah/ bisakah lalui kehidupan yg sukar itu
permulaan kehidupan sendiri sentiasa mencabar..takut maknanya belum ready.:) tapi rasanya bersusah2 skrg bersenang2 kemudian itu betul..eeee..sakit kepala..sakit perut and sakit hati pun ada jika fikirkan semua ne~
keindahan kehidupan selagi bukan dari hasil sendiri sama rasa seperti berhutang..sama sreperti loan yg bayar installment.:) bagai mana mahu membayar jasa and pengorbanan itu?semoga kejayaan ini dan segulung ijazah ini akan sedikit membayar 10% of pengorbanan / loan tak berbayar kepada  mereka yg d kenali sebagai "keluarga" :)


lihat lah diri ku kerna aku..
bukan kerana kulit ku,
bukan kerna warna rambut ku,


terima lah aku seadanya,
sebagai teman,
sebagai kawan,
hanya kerna kamu memerlukan aku.


tiada warna ,
tiada corak ,
tiada apa,
hanya ada pengertian
pengertian kehidupan,
kehidupan yg ada pasang dan surutnya.


coretan ini hanya kerna ia coretan yg ikhlas


xoxo

YeAr 2009 cLOSING aCCount

i just feel like gain back my energy to write here...what should i write first my  year 2009 conclsuion or my new year story?
well i guess i shuld make a closing for year 2009 1st.
i feel year 2009 fly so fast ..really2 fast..coz it seems like the day i celebrate new year 2009 back in Uk just a few  months back ago.but the fact its alrdy 12months ago~~wow..

janury2009: celebrating new year around UK...nothingham,bermingham,manchester and london
thn fly back to malaysia celebrating my cousion afiq "s big day

febuary: started my 2nd semester 5th year..i guess nthg much important tht day..rather thn i was saying bye2 to all my lovely friend mummy yen and chombi as them bck to msia for good~~mau jd dr sudah tu time tu

march: nothg interesting..all same old story

april : Volgo games intervasity among malaysian student around russia..well yay..my team won gold medal for futsal..wat a great revange after bad story a year before..well all are happend for reason

may: atra times..to clear all miss classes..

june: xm mode..xm time..and 19th june i guess i alrdy flew off to msia ...cant really remember!!

july/august: summer break + attachment at Queen Elizebeth kk,Sabah..it was great oliday even tho most of my time still away from my love and family~~yay!!



september : month tht i wont be happy wit coz it a month tht i hav to fly bck to russia!!every time the fellin dosent feel good..it more thn sour and worst thn bitter~~but this time i dunt hv so much pressure coz i knw insyallh itwill be the  finale one!!
and wat im in final year alrdy??wah tak percayanya

okt/nov/: all same story again

dec: emmmm same all same...my birthday and gettin older~~thnx for the big present frm my family..well no boday wanna uplod the pic for me..nvm..
and end of year 31st dec was sumwhere in moscow ...:))


conclusion : i dunt really feel like it end of 2009..it just so relaxing year for me~~even there were up and down..bt its normal..

Tired to the max

today after so long i feel so tired,which i myself cant even resist abt it.after futsal tranning it just seems like i cant even standing i just wanna lie down..hw bad it was..i was supposed to buy stuff fot tomorrow makan2..but end up i decided to go home first and at least rest few mints or at lest send my sport beg and thn go out again..but it just unbelievable i straight away laying down on the floor with tht thin blanket and srazu fall asleep..damn...+ headache and fever..asiihhh it so shitty ok..so mean all my plain gone~~ i thk i wont b able to baked cheese cake!

my love hearty alrdy home..after 5days witout my hearty..uhuhuhu..btw thanx to anuty dathy who was taking care of my little hearty~~

well im still tired

cerita2 moscow trip nnti jer lah yer.

cheers

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

When im just realized ..

after roaming around on the facebook..it seems world are getting smaller and how i am appreciating this fb coz there where every1 ( mean most of us) able to catch up ech other..to all old good friends or even new friends~~it dosent matter as long its knw as friend..well the story begin : last few days i just realized tht there is some crack on my foot area..mean keratinizatin on my fioot skin!!esp on the hell area..damn i neva tot it goona happened to me!!panic attack and searching and lookin for a solution which wont cost me much coz im in tight budget for new year trip and etc..this year esp end of this year financial status are gettin unstable but yet manageable...i tot ths keratinization will only occur for those around 40years old and above.so do it mean i am gettin damn older?season about to expired?WTH..
since than i have work harder on mantanin all this stuff and Thank God my foot getin better..emm again im wonder damn no best nyer lah if can get skin like super2 model..all cun2 and maintain... unlucky i am..
today on the way back frm hospital to maya pizza restaurant i was having converstion with dla and chui ping my grupmate suddenly one of the topic was ( WHY DOES NOW A DAYS PEOPLE ARE GETTING MARRIED BY AGE 23/24/25 YEARS OLD?) emmmm so so so heran..coz we all basically age around 24,27,even 30 years old in our group are mostly single as in single,single to mingle as in apa2 jak lah..well we just look so unmatured.cant imagine other friend around same aged are/will/ married and some of them even ada baby~~while we mostly me myself even cant take care of myself yet..gooshh there are so amazing friend~~( even 2 of my cousion same age are married) ..wow~~
i can imagined myself as and women age 30s and probably single to mingle either break up coz no one would wait for me since my carrier are far away waiting for me and lookin for my sacrifice in " time" matter.wahh hahahah..OR coz some reason which wat eva called as a reason .
and yet today im happy for ona@ fiona hamidon my xgroup mate bck in KML merangkumi my birthday twin selain dari yatie juga!!she just get engaged on the last 27 Dec 2009..u are futher ahead than all of us ur twins.btw we are truly happy for u..semoga cepat2 hanatr jemputan utk yg seterusnya Ona~~

when im just realized everyone are gettin older ( matter of number) and better to say gettin matured...but yet i cant take it coz i still dunt admitted it even all the sign of aging are showin..noooooo!!noooo!!noooooooo!!i promise myself to work harder to earn money and to maintain wat eva it is..and no matter how it takes..but yet i m preffer the natural way..not yg cucuk tang sana..tang sini ..more safe way..hahahhaa

sayangi diri anda~

obstetric and us..

now we having obs cycle and we got gagazian opss not lady gaga ya.it gonna take us 1 week period of class. at bcnp hospital. Unfortunatelythe weather just going crazy,it was around -24 till even estimated -30++ within ths week and it so challenging for us.Gagazian is a HOD of O&G if im not mistaken ya..( suka2 suki jer ckp ne)..we exposed for to practical stuff like real patient interesting cases and surgery mainly..it seems like we having gyne class now,coz she show us mainly gyne patient..but nvm..its okey..we like it.so far we observed closely vaginal hysterectomy,urinary bladder prolapse,preovarian cystoma ( pretty interesting case),myoma of uterus,demoid cyst of cervix( external os ).....so far now its make me sacred to do ( perform ) or even to undergo CS as method to deliver baby in future coz it might lead to complication i mean like adhesion and etc..yay..i hope i will able to perform better in future insyallh.
russian women are indicated to undergo gyne check up about twice a year ( abt sumwher in febuary and 10th of july)..tht sound good ya.coz some cases dosent shw any symptoms/signs/complaint tht normal women wont care about.

and today i just accomplish 1 out of 2 atrabotka..perhaps the remaining 1 tu kasi free jak lah!!:) since no topic for it~~yay..

my cooking day~~

my cooking day~~

i was enjoying my my evening,cooking my experimental vegetarian food esp for peak jean..since she goona leaving bck to msia tomorw..emm wat an early oliday for her.:) menu of the day : pasta salad,bakedd potato and vegy meat loaf..plus fried sotong for non vegy lah..eeee..feel bit happy for the outcome for it..well i hope those who ate it were like it..thnx peak jean for stop by for food and small chit chat and helping me bring back the physio text book n the present for my lovely checqa~~heheheh

happy early oliday to peak jean..

turning 24years old

24?wow...wat a number..believe or not..i have to take it..the fact every1 getting older :) feel great  spending  my day 11 dec wit my grupmates, wit lovely gurl friends ( i knw u know who u are gurls) :))and for my love as well..tx for the flower and cake..emmm neva tot its gonna be so surprise.so worries..next year we will be able to celeb togther2..and big surprise from my family as well..yay..pls dunt menipu sana ahh...emm it worth as birthdaye preset for whole 6years :))

          getting older but stay young ~~

p/s : to yatie and ona..and qhce juga..insyallh next year dpt lah celebrate our birthday ..in very gempak way.:P

Wat a life??

i keep on counting ( not exactly like final countdown or wat so eva) but i just cant wait to graduate and go back for good..but deep inside i knw i dunt have enough knowledge yet..i dunt knw either im choosing wrong place to study,or myb wrong environment or i thk it all my fault.wasting my time for all this while ,day dreaming,frustation, depression,broken heart,and etc...those thgs are nonsense..but it was over..nothing can be changed anymore..what i have is only the remaining months/weeks/days/hours/mints/sec..hope by tomorow onwards thgs changed..i dunt wanna think and dreaming for unimportant thgs.dismiss it away..ushhhh.usssh..melayan perasaan yg bukan2 ada lah sial2..perjalanan idup panjang lagi..its better to spend time to laugh and joy with friends rather than melayan perasaan..hehehe..

to all my friends : keep the friendship forever.to all my friends here in kursk to whom i spending my entire 6 years here,hope it last forever..( witout friends i guess dah lama i pack and balik msia) :))