nervous..

i feel so freak out now..at the same time so happy..but im so scared if things goes wrong..i start feel so panic if i just cant make it..so worried if i dunt hv time..yet i cant wait anymore..omg i cant believe all this cross in my mind for god sake..hahahah wt is all about?let wait and see..

Demi masa..

tajuk entry yg sukar utk d stop2 atau d laju kan juga..terlalu bnyk yg berkaitan dengan masa ug sukar utk d katakan.terasa masa berlalu dengan pantas sekali..emm 400km/hr mcm kelajuan mas wing dari kk-sandkn :) or event cant catch at all how fast time fly and goes.so rasa nya masa sudah memanggil2..and baru di sedari bahawa bila kita tidak mencari and tidak menjangka langsung ia dtg mcm mimpi and ia d rancang seolah2 sudah yakin..walau apa pun saya yakin akan ketentuan ini..biar lah kita berubah utk menjadi yg lagi baik.insyallh..doakan lah segala yg terbaik utk saya and kamu semua.

p/s : terharu hari ne dpt jemputan kad kawin my best groupmate bck in russia ..tidak d sangka2...hard copy..and its so touching..congratz in advance and happy for u my dear friend razis :)

what is this?

i tot i was so strong enough and was tooooooo toooooo into myself and yes2 just myself.now it changed and totally changed.it feel good but at the same time feel so scared.but this time im so sure wt it..throw away all the fear before..but yet the distance still the issue..aiseh nothing can be easy i guess..i hope i can bare with it and be ok all the time : ) insyallh..

lets be happy everyone :)

on the air..

nothing much to upadate..been bz recently since last 16th sept after attending medical camp at kg mentawago, kinabatangan..last sunday went to sukau,kinabatangan for sunday escape with my friends in crime..not much words can be describe but im just soooooooo happpy :)

night river cruise -kinabatangan river

shift system begin

i just officially bck to work last night,begin my duty with night duty ( 10pm till 12pm next day )..its begin with super good impression for myself as i had grade 4 bedsore..alhamdullilah.well its sound shitz on the next day morning for morning round as i begin to stuck rEADing case notes..well there is pro and cons for shift system as we wont be able to follow up patient condition. we will get assigned to diff ward and diff cubicle probably.so will c different patient during ech shift. how can posibally i'll be able to read all case notes ech time attending " new patient".best part as my department implementing 3 shift compare to other dept tht will only implementing 2 shift ( 6am till 4pm and 3pm till 12pm next day ) it sound suckss..it dosent much different to normal working hours.
best part is when i can roamming around after nite shift..for instant example..i had bunch of time just to roaming around looking for tv which end up bought a new hd tv..well im satisfied with it..yeah can enjoy more at home~~

post raya cuti

cuti raya aprox around 10days seems not enough and too short.not enough to heal few scar and to calm wt ever yg ribut.well at least i can felt ths raya so meaningful as my family gathered peacefully and few thgs tht cnt even b explained by words.
currently im stranded at kkia as my flight bck to sndkn delayed about 1hour 15 mint frm actual schedual.
hati ne memang berat utk balik,terlalu bnyk benda yg tidak pandai2 selesai.kekadang terasa tdk tertanggung.terasa benar berat nya setiap saat itu.terlalu bnyk anasir dan khurafat d luar sana itu.ya allah berikan lah aku ketenangan dlm kesusahan ini.perkenankan lah doa hamba mu ini.
sakit yg tidk dpt d gambarkan ini kekadang menjdkan aku memilih utk berdiam kerna tidak tertahan rasanya.
aku masih bersyukur memiliki seorang wanita bernama ibu yg masih ada d sisi dan memahami kesukaran idup ini.
mahu atau tidak,aku masih percaya i'll get bck my life.im not scared to b ths way and to remain ths way..amin.

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bantu lah

membantulah insan2 yg memerlukan..kerana tangan yg memberi itu lagi baik yg memberi.tapi jangan lah hanya memberi dan membantu d bulan ramdhan ne..contohnya banyak yg mengambil kesempatan menjamu atau memberi bantuan kepada anak2 yatim dan anak miskin d bulan puasa..berebut2 nak bagi derma sana sini..entah2 budak2 yg menerima pun dok jenguh p kenduri or function sana sini..murah rezeki itu bagus..tapi lagi bagus jika rezeki mereka juga sentiasa ada sepanjang tahun..sebagai contoh hari ne di rancangan bersama mu DI tv 3 ..bertapa suci nya pengorbanan mereka membesarkan anaka2 yatim dan miskin itu..hanya berteduh di suaru lama yg d ubah suai tapi masih uzur  di sana sini..mari lah bersama2 menghulurkan bantuan..tidak banyak sedikit pun juga memadai..memberi bukan pada nilai tapi pada keikhlasan. bantu lah mereka ini Rumah nur kasih taping.
banyak lagi rumah anak yatim sedemikian d malaysia ne..doakan lah mereka semua di rumah kan rezeki dan berjaya jadi manusia yg berguna.amin.

bagi yg belum mebayar zakat..jgn lupa..( well mine for sure paid by my dad lah kan..)
saya berdoa semoga kita semua di berkati..amin