motivation @ depression

now a days i keep on thinking over and over..what is life all about? most of people surrounding me feel bored and just can't wait to run away ....why the hell each department i m in there is must be not enough of HO ( Hantu hospital @ ospital aka houseman. tapi kali ne yg paling termantap sekali hanya 2 HO and MO ( mother of God aka medical officer ) yg day by day as well looking forward to leave the department A&e.its such a bored,gloomy and not fun to work alone..even though there is happening sisters, nurses and MA..but when u are dealing things alone it just not fun..it called stress..no matter how busy the shift could be but if there is enough people to work with it be so much fun and enjoy able..now i m counting weeks by weeks and it seems goes soooooooo damn slow and annoying. i can see myself as problematic in my current dept as i tend to missed my post call shift and fall a sleep till coma level and make everyone kecoh as its seems the department disfunction without me..OMG..now the feeling just more like heartless and gloomy..i hope no one would dare to make my emotional getting worst or else i'll show u my true color and u might be regret by the time and it would be just too late to say 'oppsss sorry".

for everyone out there before u choose way u wanna be ..or when any parents counting for their children future..its not bad not to work as professional....professional need sacrification and it might cost u ur own life..