post call feeling

semlm on call..on call on sunday memang lah tidak di sukai ramai,coz dari half day lagi kwn2 lain sudah balik dan merancang mcm2 benda yg best while saya stuck d ward dan tunggu pelanggan..opsss ini bukan sesuatu yg d tungu2.hahhaha..emm admission pas jam 2pm agak memberangsangkan..sehingga saya berdoa tolonglah mlm ne ok2 jer..siang hari d terima akal..if mlm2 tu dah hmpir2 jadi zombie tu tolong lah bagi saya zzzz..makanya jam 5pm plus saya kuar p membeli shu shi to cool down my aura..hahhahaa..ckp sajalah geng on call saya geng shu shi. :P conclusion on call wasnt tht bad..but myb my 2nd on call partner agak stress bgn awal pg ada admission..tidur sedikit terganggu dengan phone call yg reporting entah apa2..eeeer..sehingga rasanya semua itu hanya mimpi..luckily i didnt made any mistake while assuming all the report and etc just as my dream...bgn pagi2 terus call NICU reconfrm abt the last nite call..gosh nasib baik lah baby tak grunting and ok2 saja.. :)
well actually ini bukan lah point nyer..post call nyer lah kan..
1st day di dcc..and yes ok aja...cuma super2 post call..after 5pm..fikiran mula jd sot2..ala2 mau jadi bodoh sudah.i cant concentrate doing my thgs tht im supposed to do..i cant consult myself that im fine..i cant force to tell myself that im OK..started to feel like Shortness of breath every time thinking of all deeply things that i kept.at this moment i just wish what happened today just another episode of dream @ another level of dream..aisehhh